I took my last exam of my first semester of nursing school today. I didn't do as well as I had hoped and ended up with a course average of 90.6%, which in this program is a "B". I spent a few minutes mourning the loss of my straight "A" average, ate a bowl of ice cream, and started thinking.
Wake up, Nurse Ratched! You're a recovering alcoholic/addict and drank/smoked/used drugs from age 14 to 38. How many brain cells do you suppose you destroyed while you were out there having a "great time"? It's a miracle you have any left at all - and you are disappointed that you had enough to learn 90.6% of the enormous amount of information presented in your first semester of nursing school.
You're 56. This is an asset when it comes to life experience, however, let's be real here and admit that you don't have the stamina of a 30 year old anymore and frankly, those 40 or so extra pounds you're carrying around aren't helping any in the energy department either. It's a miracle that you were able to keep up with your younger peers and rise at 5 am to attend clinicals (not to mention hustle up and down the halls of the hospital).
Hey, remember that couldn't hear anything through a stethoscope three months ago. Today you identified specific abnormal lung sounds and a heart murmur in the simulation lab and a couple of weeks ago in clinical rotation you heard what emphysema sounds like in a human being.
Now let's talk about the husband. He's working full time (because you asked him to) and bringing home the health insurance too (because you asked him to) while you go to school. He takes care of the house and your four cats while you live half-time in Anchorage and never complains that you're gone too much.
You know you were afraid that you'd get the clinical setting and be afraid of "blood and guts". You were sure you wanted to be a psychiatric nurse (partially because you're a bit nuts yourself) and were very worried about barfing when you saw open wounds. Turns out you love open wounds....seeing the healing process and the way the body works to fix itself. That day you got to see a skin graft was the best day of your life.
So you didn't get an "A". Look at all you got instead. A bundle of miracles.